I Can't Even...A Podcast About Borderlines By Borderlines

Podcast episodes

• Season 2

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  Living Loud with BPD: Black, Intuitive, and Unapologetic

  Living Loud with BPD: Black, Intuitive, and Unapologetic

  S02 E08

  Apr 2, 2025

  22:32

  What does it really feel like to live with Borderline Personality Disorder—especially as a Black woman in a world that doesn’t always see you, hear you, or believe you? In this second part of this raw and unfiltered episode, we go deep into the inner world of a BPD warrior. From hyper-intuition and emotional whiplash in relationships, to the aching loneliness of being unseen in mental health spaces, this conversation is brutally honest, unexpectedly funny, and deeply human. Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. Here is the episode breakdown: Guest: • A BPD Warrior - A Woman of Color In this episode, you will hear: • 00:00:00 – 00:01:20 Opening Message & Trigger Warning (Beginning of Interview) •00:01:30 – 00:04:00 Hyper-intuition and Emotional Triggers 00:04:00 – 00:06:10 Validation of Intuition 00:06:20 – 00:09:20 BPD and the Intersectionality of Race 00:09:20 – 00:11:00 Relationship Challenges & Internal Conflict 00:11:00 – 00:13:00 Lighter Moment – Pet Cameo 00:13:00 – 00:14:30 Viola Davis Quote & 8-Year-Old Self 00:14:30 – 00:19:30 Creative Outlets as Healing Tools 00:19:30 – 00:21:19 Closing Encouragement & Resources Episode Resources: • Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/ o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching • Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org Credits: Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com Music Producer: DJtheIII Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

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  Too Sensitive or Superpowered?” A Raw Conversation with a Person of Color Living with BPD

  Too Sensitive or Superpowered?” A Raw Conversation with a Person of Color Living with BPD

  S02 E07

  Mar 26, 2025

  31:32

  Episode Seven In this deeply honest and unexpectedly hilarious episode, a courageous (and anonymous) Black woman shares her lived experience with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). From feeling “too much” as a teen to navigating abandonment in therapy, she holds nothing back—and proves that being emotionally intense doesn’t make you broken, it makes you powerful. We explore early signs, misdiagnoses, codependency, attachment, impulsive coping, and the deep empathy that often gets overlooked in people with BPD. Oh—and we laugh a LOT along the way. Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. Here is the episode breakdown: Guest: Connect with her on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bpdmelanin/ Episode Topic Timeline (Approximate) 00:00 – 01:00 — Opening statement about the fear and stigma of BPD; introduction and trigger warning 01:00 – 03:00 — What it’s like to feel “different” from a young age 04:00 – 06:30 — Emotional intensity and being told "you're too sensitive" 06:45 – 08:30 — Diagnosis story: Being diagnosed at 22 and the rarity of early recognition 08:30 – 10:30 — Misdiagnoses, PTSD, and feeling like “too much” for therapists 10:30 – 12:30 — Abandonment by a therapist and the emotional fallout 12:30 – 15:00 — Discussion on broken mental health systems and trying to trust again 15:00 – 18:30 — Coping mechanisms: impulsivity, codependency, fear of rejection 18:30 – 21:30 — Romantic attachment patterns, rage episodes, and self-awareness 21:30 – 24:00 — Hypersexuality, emotional regulation, and what's misunderstood in BPD 24:00 – 27:00 — Reclaiming BPD as a superpower: deep empathy, intuition, and resilience 27:00 – 29:00 — Affirmation mantra + invitation to visit showmegrace.org for support Episode Resources: Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/Career Coaching: https://www.showmegrace.org/about-3 Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org Connect with the Host: Nicole Darby: presspause4grace@gmail.com Credits: Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi Research Team: Nicole Darby

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  Jade Stanton - Helping Women with BPD Stay Committed to a Life Worth Living

  Jade Stanton - Helping Women with BPD Stay Committed to a Life Worth Living

  S02 E06

  Mar 19, 2025

  37:36

  Today's episode features Jade Stanton - BPD Coach & Warrior. In this uplifting and educational episode, BPD Coach Jade Stanton joins the conversation to share her powerful story of early diagnosis, navigating recovery, and turning her pain into purpose. Diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder at just 16, Jade opens up about the emotional intensity of adolescence, the science behind the BPD brain, and why remission—not perfection—is the goal. Listeners will learn why DBT is powerful but not the only path, how access to the right support can be life-changing, and why BPD recovery must be person-centered. Jade’s insights are honest, encouraging, and deeply validating for anyone navigating life with BPD—or supporting someone who is. Major Topic Timeline (Approximate) 00:00 – 01:15 — Welcome message and trigger warning 01:30 – 03:00 — Meet Jade Stanton: BPD coach, warrior, and advocate 04:00 – 06:30 — Diagnosed at 16: What led to an early BPD diagnosis 06:30 – 08:00 — Importance of a comprehensive psychiatric evaluation 08:00 – 11:00 — What’s happening in the BPD brain during an episode (in layman’s terms) 11:00 – 13:00 — The power of being understood by an expert (Okeechobee, FL shoutout!) 14:00 – 16:00 — Is DBT the only effective treatment for BPD? Debunking the myth 16:00 – 19:00 — Individualized care + Recovery as a lifelong journey 19:00 – 22:00 — Jade’s path to coaching: Filling the resource gap with compassion 22:00 – 24:30 — The global reach of her BPD community and online support 25:00 – 26:30 — Jade’s letter to her 8-year-old self: “Your brain will lie to you.” 27:00 – 29:00 — Jade's message to her 88-year-old self: “I hope you're having fun.” 31:00 – 33:00 — Final reflections: Recovery is about your life, not just a diagnosis 33:00 – 35:00 — How to connect with Jade & join her thriving online community 35:00 – End — Podcast mantra, closing thoughts, and support resources Connect with the Host: Nicole Darby Email: presspause4grace@gmail.com Credits: Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole Darby Music Producer of Podcast’s Intro Music: DJtheIII Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi Research Team: Nicole Darby

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  Healing Through Understanding: A Therapist's Journey with Borderline Personality Disorder

  Healing Through Understanding: A Therapist's Journey with Borderline Personality Disorder

  S02 E05

  Mar 12, 2025

  46:25

  In a compelling episode of Nicole's podcast, licensed clinical social worker Sarah Abbott opens up about her unique perspective as both a mental health professional and someone living with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Their conversation reveals valuable insights about therapy approaches, finding proper support, and redefining identity beyond diagnosis. Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. Here is the episode breakdown: Guest: • Sara Abbott, MSW, LCSW, LICSW https://www.thewellnesswayllc.com/home • Sarah hosts the "Bold Beautiful Borderlands" podcast and can be found on Instagram at @borderlinefromhell, with her podcast at @boldbeautifulborderline In this episode, you will hear: • 0:00 Intro (Beginning of Interview) • 1:28 Sara’s Introduction • 4:09 11 Years of Pre-Suicide and Post-Suicide Behavior? • 11:21 How Trauma Informs Her Perspective? • 12:08 Not Being in Therapy as a Therapist • 13:26 What in the World is Holistic Bio Psychosocial Approach to Therapy? • 16:56 Why Aren’t All Medical and Mental Health Providers Using Cross Systems Planning? • 23:39 Why It’s Okay Sometimes for Both the Therapist and the Client to Say the Wrong Thing? • 27:57 Why Borderlines Need to Bring the “Fun” Back? • 34:56 Be Clear About Your Deal Breakers and Must Haves Before Finding a Therapist • 41:01 Permission to Not See Yourself Through the Lense of Having Borderline • 43:37 Closing (End of Interview) • 43:57 Closing Statement & BPD Daily Mantra • 44:15 Outro Episode Resources: • Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/ o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching • Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org ❗Don't miss the special offer from Dr. Gregory Serfer, who is providing a 30% discount on the digital version of his book, “I Am Still Right Here” exclusively for our listeners! Use promo code XA05T3V2K1MMK on the website linked in the episode resources section. ❗ Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast. • “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT Credits: Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com Music Producer: DJtheIII Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi

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  Part Three with Valerie Porr: Her Call to Action - Join the Movement if We Want BPD Stigma to Change

  Part Three with Valerie Porr: Her Call to Action - Join the Movement if We Want BPD Stigma to Change

  S02 E04

  Mar 5, 2025

  28:20

  Today’s episode brings us the final part of what has been a most exciting and informative interview with Valerie Porr, Author and Founder of the Treatment and Research Advancements National Association for Personality Disorder (TARA4BPD), a non-for-profit organization founded in 1995. She shares a Call to Action, determined that change will come with more involvement in conferences and BPD presentations. And we definitely need to promote BPD research.. Disclaimer: The title of this podcast and its contents are not intended to in any way promote, encourage, or advocate suicide or any form of self-harm. If you or someone you know is contemplating suicide and needs support, please call 988 for the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline. Here is the episode breakdown: Guest: • Valerie Porr • Website: https://www.tara4bpd.org// • Episode Resources: • Press Pause, Inc.’s Website: https://www.showmegrace.org/ o Free & low-cost BPD resources and support, including career coaching • Crisis Hotline - Call or Text 988 or Chat At 988lifeline.org ❗Don't miss the special offer from Dr. Gregory Serfer, who is providing a 30% discount on the digital version of his book, “I Am Still Right Here” exclusively for our listeners! Use promo code XA05T3V2K1MMK on the website linked in the episode resources section. ❗ Additionally, 15% of each sale using this code will go to support the “Press Pause” podcast. • “I Am Still Right Here”: https://www.amazon.com/I-Am-Still-Right-Here/dp/B0BNTZBZFT Credits: Host and Podcast Producer: Nicole presspause4grace@gmail.com Music Producer: DJtheIII Sound Engineer: Stefan Mitroi Support The Show: Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/show/1w8Al9kFeNskbt8COjJifi?si=b83e472252bd4175 Pandora:https://pandora.app.link/aidOtuflGJb Amazon Music: https://music.amazon.com/podcasts/c5a7d061-0a9a-42d8-a264-f28364ebc40d/i-can't-even-kill-myself-right iHeartRadio: https://www.iheart.com/podcast/269-i-cant-even-kill-myself-ri-174364401