How Do You Quiet the Voices of Insecurity? | Adam R.

Adam's story begins with the universal feeling of not quite fitting in. Growing up with a significant age gap between his siblings, he felt he had "big shoes to fill" and struggled with deep-seated insecurity and anger. He found a temporary solution in substances—first marijuana at 14, then alcohol and benzos—which quieted the negative voices in his head and gave him a sense of identity and belonging. This led to a cycle of isolation, academic probation, and hospitalizations throughout college, all while he tried to maintain the facade of a "fun" party persona.

This episode is a raw look at the turning point: when his father showed up unannounced at his door, leading to his first attempt at rehab. Adam shares his difficult journey through relapse, the tragic loss of his mother to cancer, and the profound realization that he couldn't manage  ...