46: Why I Stay Up Late Even Though I Know Better

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aka: The Identity Crisis Hiding in Your Sleep Schedule

You’re not bad at routines. You’re starving for yourself.

This episode is a raw, real-time reflection on why we trade sleep for slivers of freedom—and what it costs us as parents, partners, and people trying to feel like ourselves again. We’re talking sleep sabotage, revenge bedtime procrastination, and the emotional tug-of-war between being responsible and being free.

00:02 – Why this episode’s late & what that teaches about presence vs. planning

01:30 – The truth: I teach regulation but still sabotage my own sleep

03:40 – What sleep debt actually does to your emotional regulation

04:20 – The 11PM me vs. the real me—chaos, cravings, an ...