The Original Self Podcast

by Evet DeCota

Season 1

Episode 12- Part 1: True Crime Obsession Explained | The Psychology Behind Why You Can't Stop Watching

You told yourself you were going to bed early. And yet here you are. In Part 1 of this two-part series, psychology-informed life coach Evet DeCota breaks down the real science behind our true crime obsession — and why it says more about us than we think. This isn't about morbid fascination. It's about evolution, threat intelligence, justice, community, and the complicated cost of consuming other people's worst moments as entertainment. In this episode: Why the pull toward dark content is evolutionary — not a character flaw The safety information hypothesis: why women are the core true crime audience and why that's completely rational The dopamine-suspense loop that makes these stories impossible to turn off What true crime actually gives us — empathy, justice reform, community, and fear processing The hidden costs: anxiety, desensitization, sleep disruption, and secondary traumatic stress The ethical question the genre rarely asks: at what point does engagement stop serving justice and start serving our entertainment? Real stories from three women whose true crime consumption shows up in their real lives — including one who used what she'd learned to get herself out of a dangerous situation Part 2 drops next week — featuring a guest who didn't watch the Lori Vallow Daybell sentencing on a screen. She got on a plane. 🎙️ Hosted by Evet DeCota 🌐 decotalifecoaching.com 📩 Reach out about coaching or the podcast at decotalifecoaching@gmail.com

S1 · E12

May 26, 2026

51:19

Episode 11- Why We Say "I'm Fine" When We Are Not: The Psychology of Hiding Your True Feelings

Most of us learned to say “I’m fine” long before we understood what it was costing us. In Episode 11 of The Original Self Podcast, Evet DeCota shares how a childhood bone disease, the loss of her best friend, and a love she was too armored to fight for all shaped her into someone who buried her feelings so deeply she eventually stopped feeling them altogether. Then she’s joined by Jackson — her 17-year-old nephew — in one of the most honest conversations this podcast has ever held. Jackson lost his mother to colon cancer at fifteen, watched his family fracture in the aftermath, and spent years hiding behind humor, performance, and a persona built to keep people from getting too close. His first serious relationship cracked something open in him that grief alone couldn’t. And in this episode, he finally says it out loud. This episode weaves personal story with psychology — including Erving Goffman’s concept of impression management, Dr. Brené Brown’s research on shame and armor, Arthur Aron’s self-expansion theory, Helen Fisher’s neuroscience of heartbreak, and Dr. James Pennebaker’s findings on the physical cost of emotional concealment. What We Cover • Why “I’m fine” becomes automatic — and what it protects us from • How emotional suppression starts in childhood and hardens over time • The neuroscience of heartbreak and why it feels physical • What first love reveals about the self we’ve been hiding • Why performing “fine” is armor — not resilience • What exists on the other side of fine: the quiet relief of being known Researchers & Concepts Referenced • Erving Goffman — Impression Management / The Presentation of Self in Everyday Life • Dr. Brené Brown — Shame, Vulnerability, and Armor • Arthur Aron — Self-Expansion Theory and Love • Helen Fisher — The Neuroscience of Heartbreak and Love as Addiction • Dr. James Pennebaker — Emotional Suppression and Physical Health Reflection Question Who in your life would make time for your truth — but you keep giving them “fine” instead? What would it cost you to tell them one real thing this week? Connect & Work With Evet Website: www.decotalifecoaching.com Instagram: @decotalifecoaching.com

S1 · E11

May 20, 2026

1:24:09

Episode 10: They Couldn't Do It Without Us: The Psychology of Normallizing Deviance

Episode 10: They Couldn't Do It Without Us — Normalizing Deviance In this episode, Evet DeCota examines one of the most urgent and underexamined forces shaping our culture: the normalization of deviance. Drawing on psychology, sociology, and deeply personal experience, she explores how sexual, economic, and political deviance all share the same roots — and how systems of protection, media consumption, and our own willingness to look away allows them to flourish. Key Concepts Covered • Paraphilic disorders and the DSM-5 distinction between atypical interest and disorder • Robert Merton's Strain Theory and how narcissism compounds it • Diane Vaughan's normalization of deviance framework, developed from the Space Shuttle Challenger disaster • Albert Bandura's moral disengagement theory and how it spreads from perpetrators to bystanders • The Linz, Donnerstein, and Penrod desensitization research • Jennifer Freyd's institutional betrayal theory • Martin Seligman's learned helplessness research • Hannah Arendt's banality of evil Research ReferencedVaughan, D. (1996). The Challenger Launch Decision. University of Chicago Press. Bandura, A. (2016). Moral Disengagement. Worth Publishers. Linz, D., Donnerstein, E., & Penrod, S. (1984-1989). Desensitization studies on sexual violence in media. Freyd, J. (1997). Betrayal Trauma. Harvard University Press. Seligman, M. (1975). Helplessness. W.H. Freeman. Arendt, H. (1963). Eichmann in Jerusalem. Viking Press. American Psychiatric Association. DSM-5 Paraphilic Disorders Framework. Reflection Questions From This Episode 1. Is there something happening in the world right now that you have quietly adjusted to? 2. Think of someone you admire. Have you ever looked the other way at their behavior because of what they gave you? 3. Of the people and institutions discussed, is there one you found yourself wanting to defend? Notice that impulse and ask where it comes from. 4. Where in your own life have you felt the cost of looking away? 5. What is one thing you have been calling by the wrong name? What would it cost you to start naming it accurately?

S1 · E10

May 11, 2026

49:11

Episode 9: Why You Feel Disconnected from Your Life and How to Come Back to It

Have you ever looked at your life and thought: Everything is fine, so why doesn’t it feel like me? That low, steady sense of disconnection — when nothing is obviously wrong, but something still feels off — is one of the most common and least talked-about experiences there is. And in this episode, we finally name it. In Episode 9, we explore the hidden pattern of performing your life instead of actually living it: where it comes from, what it quietly costs you, and how to begin finding your way back to yourself — without blowing up everything you’ve built. I cover: • Why disconnection hides behind a life that looks completely fine • The psychology of identity performance, and the work of Erving Goffman, Carl Rogers, and John Bowlby • The three drivers that shape a performed identity: adaptation, approval, and safety • Four signs you may be living a performed life • What the turning point actually looks like — and why it’s rarely a breakdown • How Carl Jung’s concept of individuation explains those moments of noticing • Why therapist Hillary McBride says envy is self-knowledge in disguise • A simple question that can help you start coming back to yourself This episode is for you. If you’ve been going through the motions, feeling like a version of yourself rather than the whole thing, or quietly wondering why a life that works still doesn’t feel like yours.

S1 · E9

May 4, 2026

44:29

Episode 8: Are You Self-Aware or Self Absorbed: The Truth About Why We See Ourselves the Way We Do

Most of us have been around someone who makes every conversation about themselves, reacts before thinking, and never seems to notice the effect they have on others. And most of us have, at some point, been that person without realizing it. In this episode, I draw a clear line between self-absorption and self-awareness, and I want to be upfront about what this episode is not. It is not about narcissism. Narcissism is a clinical personality disorder. This is about the rest of us, the patterns we fall into, the blind spots we carry, and whether we have the capacity to change them. I open with an overheard conversation at a golf course, where four men declared that women need therapy more than men, right before revealing they had all been in therapy themselves. That contradiction is exactly where this episode begins. We cover the psychology of self-absorption and self-awareness, what each one looks like in practice, and the paradox between them. How can a person be constantly looking inward and still never actually see themselves? We explore nature versus nurture, Alfred Adler's superiority and inferiority complexes, and Dr. William Van Gordon's Ontological Addiction Theory, which argues that the real addiction is to your own sense of importance. We then go deeper into what makes change possible and what keeps the wall up. Julian Rotter's locus of control theory connects directly to whether self-awareness is even attainable, and research by Ferdi Botha and Sarah Dahmann confirms that believing you have agency over your life doesn't just correlate with better outcomes. It amplifies them. Finally, we look at why taking things personally is its own form of self-absorption, what productive versus maladaptive rumination looks like, and how a daily practice of honesty, reframing, and laughter can become your most powerful tool for self-awareness. Self-awareness is not a destination. It's a discipline. And you don't have to do it perfectly. You just have to keep doing it.

S1 · E8

Apr 28, 2026

30:19

Episode 7: Toxic Positivity vs. Real Resilience: Why Hope Without Action Is a Trap

Toxic positivity doesn't feel like positivity when you're on the receiving end. It feels like shame. In this episode of The Original Self Podcast, Evet DeCota explores the real difference between toxic positivity and genuine resilience — and why hope without action becomes one of the most seductive traps we fall into. From the phrases we reach for without thinking — look on the bright side, at least you have your health, you're fine, everything happens for a reason — to the deeper cost of invalidating the people we love, this episode unpacks what toxic positivity actually does, why it creates shame even when it comes from love, and where genuine resilience really comes from. Evet shares the personal story of the years she cared for her mother on dialysis, the moment at the elevator she has never been able to undo, and what real resilience looked like when she finally stopped reaching for a phrase and sat on the arm of the chair with her mom instead. You'll also hear about the difference between hope that fuels action and hope used as avoidance — with honest examples including Evet's own relationship with the scale, the friend whose body collapsed under years of unopened bills, and Nelson Mandela's twenty-seven-year practice of disciplined hope. Grounded in the work of Susan David, Whitney Goodman, Brené Brown, and Nelson Mandela, this episode offers a framework for the kind of resilience that acknowledges pain without drowning in it — and the kind of hope that holds reality while still looking straight at it. If you have ever been told your feelings were too much, too sensitive, or not valid — this episode is for you. ⏱ Chapters: 00:00 Introduction 02:15 The phrases that shut us down 05:30 What toxic positivity actually is 09:00 Susan David and the tyranny of positivity 12:00 The shame underneath 15:30 The elevator — a personal story about my mom 22:00 Where real resilience actually comes from 28:00 Hope as avoidance: the scale, the bills, the body 32:30 Nelson Mandela and disciplined hope 36:00 The you're fine reflection 39:30 What to do instead — five practices for this week 43:00 Closing reflection (timestamps to be adjusted after final edit) 🔗 Connect with Evet: 🌐 decotalifecoaching.com 🎙 The Original Self Podcast on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, and YouTube New episodes drop every other week. Subscribe so you don't miss the next one. Helping women reflect deeper, grow stronger, and walk confidently back to themselves — through coaching, podcasts, and blog posts.

S1 · E7

Apr 24, 2026

44:30

Episode 6: The Ego Trap: What Happens When Self-Focus Disconnects You From Everyone Else

In Episode 6, Evet opens with a simple observation from a friend that raises a bigger question: when did kindness become remarkable? From there, the episode moves through the psychology of hyper-individualism and its three measurable costs — loneliness, polarization, and empathy erosion — tracing how each generation is living them out differently. Gen Z, Millennials, and Gen X each get an honest and unflinching look, including Evet's own generation and her own blind spots. The episode draws on the work of psychologists Jean Twenge and W. Keith Campbell, former Surgeon General Vivek Murthy, and scholar john a. powell of the Othering and Belonging Institute, whose framework of othering and belonging gives language to what many are witnessing but struggling to name. The episode closes with five concrete entry points toward change: presence, extending the circle, seeking discomfort, accountability, and small acts of kindness — and a reflection question for the listener to sit with.

S1 · E6

Apr 13, 2026

23:21

Episode 5: Why You Procrastinate: The Emotional Pattern Keeping You Stuck in Your Comfort Zone

The Original Self Podcast Episode 5: The Hidden Pattern Behind Procrastination: How Your Brain Turns Discomfort into Delay If you have ever cleaned your entire kitchen, reorganized a drawer for the third time, or started a four-season show instead of the one task that has been sitting at the top of your list for weeks, this episode is for you. Most of us have been taught that procrastination is a discipline problem. A time management issue. A character flaw. But that understanding is incomplete. And in this episode, I want to give you something more accurate — and more useful — than shame. What we cover: We start by getting precise about what procrastination actually is — and what it is not. Not all delay is procrastination, and collapsing them into the same category is part of why we end up punishing ourselves for situations that were never in our control. I break down the difference between purposeful delay, inevitable delay, and emotional delay, and why each one deserves a different response. From there, we explore the four distinct types of procrastination — hedonistic, arousal, irrational, and psychological distress delay — because recognizing which one you are dealing with changes how you respond to it. At the center of this episode is the work of Dr. Timothy Pychyl, whose research makes one thing clear: procrastination is not about time. It is about emotion. We are not avoiding the task. We are avoiding the feeling attached to the task. And avoidance works — which is exactly what makes it so hard to break. I also explore the neuroscience behind why the brain chooses avoidance, and what it takes to override a nervous system that has learned to treat your most meaningful work as a threat. We then look at what actually gets us unstuck, drawing on David Allen's Getting Things Done methodology and James Clear's argument that action comes before motivation — not the other way around. The conversation deepens with Self-Determination Theory from psychologists Edward Deci and Richard Ryan, whose three basic psychological needs — autonomy, competence, and relatedness — reveal exactly why certain tasks feel nearly impossible to approach. I also bring in Dr. Kristin Neff's research on self-compassion and why self-judgment does not correct the pattern of procrastination. It reinforces it. I share a personal story about a period in my own life when procrastination had less to do with laziness and everything to do with shame — and the moment I realized the shame did not belong to me. We close with the identity connection: how repeated avoidance builds a story about who we are, and how the Pygmalion and Golem Effects — the psychology of high and low expectations — shape not just what others believe about us, but what we have quietly come to believe about ourselves. The reflection question to sit with: What is the one thing you have been putting off that, if you are being honest with yourself, matters to you more than almost anything else on your list? And what is the very first physical step — not the whole thing, just the first movement — that you could take toward it this week? DeCota Life Coaching helps you reflect deeper, grow stronger, and walk confidently back to yourself — through coaching, podcasts, and blogs. Learn more at decotalifecoaching.com.

S1 · E5

Apr 5, 2026

29:32

Episode 4: What Grief Does to Your Identity: Who You Become After Loss

Every loss changes the shape of the life around it. Some losses are announced with funerals and flowers. Others happen quietly, without ceremony, and nobody thinks to ask how you are doing. In this episode of The Original Self Podcast, Evet DeCota is joined by her brother Stefan DeCota for an honest and deeply personal conversation about grief, identity, and who we become when someone or something we love is gone. Stefan is a strategic business advisor with twenty-five years of experience inside large startups and data companies, but what he brings to this conversation has nothing to do with business. It has everything to do with having loved deeply, lost significantly, and still standing. Together, they explore five dimensions of loss that rarely get the attention they deserve. The grief of losing a friendship that ends without a conversation. The identity crisis that follows the end of a significant relationship. The particular absence left by losing a parent — the people who knew you longest, the witnesses to your own story. The quiet grief of outgrowing people you love. And the loss of the version of yourself that existed before all of it. Woven throughout the conversation are three psychological frameworks that give language to what so many people carry silently. Dr. Pauline Boss's Ambiguous Loss Theory describes the grief that lacks ceremony and social recognition. Research from Nature Reviews Neuroscience and from Duke and Yale Universities confirms that social loss registers in the brain as genuine physical pain. And Continuing Bonds Theory, developed by Klass, Silverman, and Nickman, challenges the idea that healthy grieving means letting go — suggesting instead that we carry those we have lost forward into who we are becoming. As C.S. Lewis wrote, grief is like a long valley, a winding valley where any bend may reveal a totally new landscape. That is loss. That is life. This episode is for anyone who is carrying a loss that the world never permitted them to grieve. You are not alone in what you are holding. Evet DeCota is an ICF-certified life coach and psychology-informed thinker. To learn more or work with Evet directly, visit decotalifecoaching.com. New episodes of The Original Self Podcast drop weekly.

S1 · E4

Apr 2, 2026

58:30

Episode 3: The Authentic Algorithm-Can AI Enhance or Destroy Who You Really Are?

You are using AI right now. Maybe to search, to write, to plan, or to process. But here is the question nobody is asking loudly enough: what is it doing to who you actually are? In this episode of The Original Self Podcast, Evet DeCota takes an honest look at one of the most pressing questions of our time. AI is reshaping advertising, music, news, jobs, and human connection — and most of us are participating in that reshaping without ever deciding to. Drawing on her own evolving relationship with AI, a deep dive into research on empathy and technology, and candid conversations with an insider at a major AI safety company and her brother Stefan, a strategic business advisor with 25 years of experience in data and tech, Evet explores both sides of the question with the honesty her listeners have come to expect. In this episode: • Why deepfakes and AI-generated content are widening the chasm between people, viewpoints, and feelings. • What AI actually is — and the critical distinction between learning from it and letting it reason and communicate for you. • The research of Victor Frimpong and Empathy Displacement Theory — how simulated empathy doesn't just fill the gap where real empathy used to be, but gradually retrains us to accept the imitation as the real thing. • What an AI safety insider and a strategic business advisor both warn is coming — and why it deserves our attention now. • A client story that shows what it looks like when AI is used as a tool for self-discovery rather than a substitute for it. • The difference between intention and abdication — and the one question that will tell you which side you are on. AI can hold the ladder. But you have to do the climbing. This episode is for anyone who uses AI and wonders whether it is helping them become more themselves — or quietly less. Research Referenced: Frimpong, V. (2025). Empathy and the Human-Moment Gaps of AI Chatbots: Insights from Empathy Displacement Theory. Evet DeCota is an ICF-certified life coach and psychology-informed thinker. To learn more or work with Evet directly, visit decotalifecoaching.com. New episodes of The Original Self Podcast drop weekly.

S1 · E3

Mar 24, 2026

16:40

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