I met my Biological Father at the age of 31 and it was my first time seeing him as an adult. I sought him because I had decided that I wanted to heal the parts of me that were raw and unfinished as a result of my belief that I wasn't worthy of the loyalty and love of a man so that I could begin the journey of finding a Healthy love relationship with a partner. Finding him was my part to do to create the beautiful life I live today and this is where it started. My father died of Pancreatic Cancer on January 1, 2008, mere months after our meeting. Glad I got to grapple with the thoughts and beliefs I had developed with him and get his perspective while he was still healthy. This episode will surely be expanded in seasons to come.
I often wonder, what is it about me that I don't want to do more than he is doing or expend more energy than him in this marriage? Why am I protecting myself from going all out or all in despite how he is showing up or what he is doing? This episode is jut the tip of the iceberg for more conversation to come as we unpack why I and Maybe why you are keeping score in your marriage. Let's get into it...
Today I am 45 and there are so many things I want to do and so many things I am responsible to do all while attempting to practice self care and pursue my dreams. What are my priorities and how can I live on purpose and live the dream?? If you have figured it out or have simply mastered some concepts necessary to keep the energy and excitement for life charged and within reach, do share your wisdom
