Why Is It Harder This Time? The Silent Guilt of Doing Motherhood Again

I know better now. I’m wiser, older, more experienced… so why am I being so hard on myself this time?”

In this raw and vulnerable episode of Breaking the Silence, author Nikki Nicole opens up about a quiet weight many mothers carry but rarely name: the self-judgment that creeps in when you're mothering again — later in life, in a new season, or under totally different circumstances.

You thought it would be easier this time. But instead: 💭 The expectations feel higher. 😔 The guilt hits harder. 💔 And grace feels just out of reach.

This episode explores the emotional load of being a seasoned mom who still wrestles with doubt, comparison, and the pressure to "get it right." It’s for anyone silently asking, Why am I struggling more now, when I thought I’d finally figured this out?

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