What if the healing you’ve begged God for never comes?

In this vulnerable conversation, Ryan Dawn sits down with author and speaker Brenna Blain (@bunonmyhead) to talk about suffering, mental health, and what it looks like to stay faithful when your prayers aren't answered (at least the way you'd expect). Brenna shares openly about living with bipolar disorder, the pain of unanswered prayers, and the pressure to perform spiritual perfection in Christian spaces.

Together, they unpack:

Why the Church often doesn’t know what to do with real suffering
How prosperity gospel lite sneaks into our expectations
The tension of preaching while struggling
Why vulnerability isn’t a liability—it's protection
Finding God in slow, quiet, ordinary healing
The difference between hoping for rescue and being sustained by presence

This episode is for anyone who’s still hurting and still here. For the ones who keep showing up, not because it’s easy—but because they still believe God is who He says He is.

🎧 Listen wherever you get your podcasts

📘 Grab Brenna’s book ⁠Can I Say That? How Unsafe Questions Lead Us to The Real God⁠

🔗 Follow her at ⁠@bunonmyhead⁠

🎧 Hear more of her story on ⁠With The Perrys⁠ and ⁠The Deep End With Lecrae⁠

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