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Happy To Disappoint

Happy To Disappoint

by Happy to Disappoint

Mental Health Personal Journals

Season 2

S2 E8: The Living Word Vs. The Letter

THE LETTERB0MB HAS ARRIVED, DISAPPOINTMENTS! TLDR: Our hero Shalom drops the truth on the internet and saves us all. It is October 24th, and a very strong, brave, beautiful human has something to say to us all. Will the Living Word Fellowship survive her words? SPOILER: No. No it will not. Join us on this fateful day as we: Remember where we were when we… Read the letter that changed our lives Watch the walls crumble around our ears and also breathe for the first time Unpack the immediate, IMMENSE response CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, Death of a Cult Leader, Mental Health Struggles, The Feelings That Arise As A Cult Collapses REFERENCES: Shalom’s Letter: https://thelivingwordfellowshipthewholetruth.wordpress.com The Cult of Cures | Why My Mom Refused Chemo: https://www.barkerfilms.com/oops/v/medicine

S2 E7: The Beginning of the End

THE END IS NIGH, DISAPPOINTMENTS! It is the interim period between Marilyn’s death and Shalom’s letter. Toot toot! The light you see at the end of the tunnel IS, in fact, the headlamp of a fast approaching train! Stasia is getting roped into family dinner nights with Uncle Icky and Leandra begins her time as a church employee in a state of utmost delulu. HEAVY trigger warnings in this episode (see below). When you feel safe, join us as we unpack: Where we were as we approached D-Day Meeting notes from Uncle Icky’s sudden and desperate attempts to become involved in “The Word” The hasty administrative decisions from every direction Papa Gary starting the search for New New Mama What it looks like when a system that is DEFINITELY NOT a hierarchy pretends to act as a democracy CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, Death of a Cult Leader, Terminal Illness, Biblical R*pe, !!Su*c*dal Ideation!!, A Grown Man’s Obsession with High Schoolers, KING DAVID REFERENCES: Our personal notes and photos lol

S2 E6: The Death of Another Cult Leader

Ding dong, Disappointments! The year is 2015 and the death of the witch is imminent! We have jumped forward in time, Marilyn is terminal, priorities are shifting, and the initiative has changed. Our lifelong mission to “preserve the word” goes out the window and into some bonfires. Hope you got your tickets to Marilyn’s funeral! Fly to Iowa with us and discover: • Secret notes passed on this weeks from the 70’s • The shift from “preserve” to “streamline” when it comes to certain storage spaces • Where Stasia was while Leandra was uncovering hidden treasures in Shiloh (literally) • The weird vibes at “Mom’s Last Party” • A kiss to build a dream on CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, Death of a Cult Leader, Terminal Illness, Funerals, Grave Digging, Bad Louis Armstrong Impressions A NOTE: The video version of this episode has some photos! REFERENCES: Leandra’s personal photos https://faroutmagazine.co.uk/cult-kidnapped-yoko-ono-daughter/ https://people.com/the-heartbreaking-custody-battle-behind-john-lennon-and-yoko-ono-s-new-york-move-8781710 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nrnDPk9uUMY

S2 E5: The 2008 Outpouring

Welcome back to 2008, where speaking in tongues is IN and the pourings are OUT! In part two of our ’08 trauma dump, we’re zooming in on the doctrinal distractions that were shoved in front of the congregation to keep people from asking too many questions about the latest Uncle Icky affair. How the hell did an evangelical revival in Florida being led by a dude we’ve never head of become Gary’s favorite topic??? Listen in to find out, and stay tuned as we unpack: Shadrach, Meschach and Abednego?????????? Finally getting a taste of what our cult felt like “when John was alive” The abrupt change in marching orders from “keep it in the family” to “shout it from the rooftops” Evangelizing with ZERO experience at the Northridge Mall The existential burden of being asked to participate in “Divine Healing” CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, TODD BENTLY AGAIN, BLUEBERRIES APPARENTLY, Evangelical Revival Language and Mindset, as aforementioned: Shadrach, Meschach and Abednego!!! Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com REFERENCES: https://acsirevivals.wordpress.com/other-revivals/lakeland-revival-and-todd-bentley/ https://www.fitsnews.com/2025/01/08/morningstar-saga-victims-respond-alleged-abuser-restored/

S2 E4: The 2008 Microtyrants

Welcome to the best worst year of our lives: 2008! In part one of this 2008 extravaganza, we’re taking a look at the repeat scandal that set off a chain of organizational and spiritual chaos, and some of the prominent figures that rose to power the INSTANT there was a power vacuum. Follow along as we wade through our big feelings about: The 2008 Scandal and immediate subsequent siege--wait, no, “OUTPOURING” Uncle Icky out of the picture for the first time in our lives The Microtyrants who rose to prominence during this time The whiplash of shifting from decades of insular doctrine to TODD BENTLY??? CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, TODD BENTLY, Evangelical Revival Language and Mindset, COOTER BURGER. Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com

S2 E2: The Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down Pt. 1

Welcome to the Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down! This week we will be discussing the top dogs in the hierarchical structure of our cult, THE BIG 3! Strap in for this two-part episode about the head bitches in charge. In Part 1, we dive into: John’s system of control A light introduction to “APCO” Marilyn the usurper and her army of word workers What it takes to be the perfect transcriber Gary oozin’ up that ladder Dippin’ our toe in the topic of Uncle Icky Stay tuned for Part 2 where we will unpack who Uncle Icky was and the kind of people he kept around. CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, JRS DIRECT QUOTES, GIRLS TURN IT OFF!!! Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com REFERENCES: Oops! I’m In A Cult (Episodes) Girls Turn It Off | Misogyny in Christianity Cult Leaders William Branham and John Robert Stevens | Interview with John Collins The Living Word Fellowship’s Secret Society: Interview With Kristy Pfeifer Held Liable | The Lawsuits Against the Living Word Kelly Daniels in THE SUN Magazine https://www.thesunmagazine.org/articles/26338-golden-threads JRS Quotes: John Robert Stevens, This Week (1983), vol. 14 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 295–296. John Robert Stevens,This Week (1980), vol. 11 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 300–301.

S2 E1: A Brisk Jaunt Through a Tight 40 Years

WE ARE BACK, YOU BEAUTIFUL DIAPPOINTING BABIES!!! We're still here and we're still healing. Beep beep! Hop on in! In this episode we'll be taking you through the decades to provide context on our cult's history and why we had so much to scream about last season. Aaaaaand why we're still screaming. Follow along as we unpack: Where Cult Daddy John Robert Stevens (JRS) got his secrets What kind of shenanigans JRS got up to as he built this cult The hostile cult takeover of a power-hungry “secretary” What happens when an immortal guy dies? CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Physical and Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, Childhood $*xual Ab*se, JRS DIRECT QUOTES, BEDROOM BLOOD TRANSFUSIONS Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com REFERENCES: Oops! I’m In A Cult (Episodes) To Be a Charlatan | John Robert Stevens and The Walk John Robert Stevens | A Cult Leader is Born The Witch Trials of 1967 The Cult of Cures | Why My Mom Refused Chemo Cult Leaders William Branham and John Robert Stevens | Interview with John Collins The Living Word Fellowship’s Secret Society: Interview With Kristy Pfeifer Held Liable | The Lawsuits Against the Living Word Shiloh Compound Burning https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zYEj6fuj3NE John Collins (Website & Podcast) https://william-branham.org/ https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/leaving-the-message/id1584719188

S2 E3: The Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down Pt. 2

Welcome back to the Hierarchy Lowdown Ho-Down! Today we’re getting a little further into the hierarchy, unpacking the structure of control and its effects from Uncle Icky on dowwwwn! In Part 2 we’re dishin’ some dirt on: Uncle Icky’s interests (ew) The creeps Uncle Icky kept around The structure of control The information-collection system Why it still hurts now (ow) CONTENT & TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious and Spiritual Ab*se, Emotional Ab*se, High Control Environments/Relationships, Narcissistic Ab*se and Manipulation, $*xually Inappropriate Behavior and Gr00ming by Authority Figures, St@lking, JRS DIRECT QUOTES, THE UPWARD FLOW CHART Email us at: disappointcast@gmail.com Follow us on Instagram & Bluesky: @disappointcast Support us on Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/HappyToDisappoint Check out our website at: https://www.happytodisappoint.com REFERENCES: Oops! I’m In A Cult (Episodes) Cult Leaders William Branham and John Robert Stevens | Interview with John Collins Rediscovering Christianity Post-Cult | Interview with Caleb LaPlante Held Liable | The Lawsuits Against the Living Word JRS Quotes: John Robert Stevens, This Week (1983), vol. 14 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 295–296. John Robert Stevens, This Week (1980), vol. 11 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 300–301. John Robert Stevens, This Week (1981), vol. 12 (North Hollywood, CA: Living Word Publications, 2007), 1093.

Season 1

Ep 13: The Magic Yule Bus (Christmas Truck)

Alright, Disappointments, here is our full run down of the events surrounding the event that was The Magical Christmas Caroling Truck. Follow along as we do our best to answer questions like: How did it start? Work Nights?!? Who did all that work? What the heck was this thing? Who was invited to the secret Christmas Party? What happened at the secret Christmas Party? CONTENT TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious Ab*se, High Control Environments, Grooming by Authority Figures, Mental Health Struggles, Substance Ab*use: Alcohol, 🚨CHRISTMAS CAROLS🚨

Ep 12: The Nick of Time with Nick Hays

It’s our Season One FINALE, folks! Our guest this week is a guy we found in a bar that one time: Nick Hays. As the Living Word Fellowship was falling apart, Nick had a backstage pass to all the red flags as he and Leandra started to date, and also, Stasia was there!!! Now he’s here to share his unique perspective as an outsider with inside information on the collapse of a cult. Join us as Nick takes us through the timeline and recollects: Meeting two babes at the best bar in Burbank Being reassured our church was “Not that kind of church” Finding out it is! Finding out it’s MUCH much worse! 2018 and beyond! Don’t fret! We’ll be back this winter with a CHRISTMAS TRUCK Special (*ominous jingle bells*) and we’ll be super duper back in Spring 2026 with a whole new season! CONTENT TRIGGER WARNINGS: Religious Ab*se, High Control Environments, Grooming by Authority Figures, Mental Health Struggles, Substance Ab*use: Alcohol, 🚨POPE HAT🚨

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