This is the first part of my story leading up to the separation from my boys this week. I want to discus the truth about how bad things av been. I have been through alot in my life and still find the will to keep going. And that will has now helped me find the courage to speak out about this and say I want the story told. I want others to know that I may not have been perfect and I made mistakes. I learnt from those mistakes and I also did absolutely everything I could. Children services should be getting to know the parents properly and then offering them real help. Not just turning their backs on them and taking away their reason to wake each day