You Cannot Sit Alone in a Room

Notice what your hand does the next time there is a gap. The elevator, the red light, the checkout line: before you have decided anything, the phone is already out. This episode is an audio essay about the man who diagnosed that reflex more than 350 years before the smartphone existed. Blaise Pascal, writing in the 1650s in the unfinished fragments that became the Pensees, claimed that almost the entire unhappiness of human beings comes from one small inability: we do not know how to sit quietly in a room alone. He had a word for everything we do instead, divertissement, diversion, and an unnerving claim to go with it: most human activity is not what it appears to be. We do not want the prize, we want the chase that keeps us from being alone with our own thoughts. We follow the argument step by step. The hunter who would refuse the hare if you handed it to him for free, because the hare was never the point. The gambler who would be made miserable by a gift of the very winnings he plays for. The king who has everything and is, for exactly that reason, the person most in need of distraction, surrounded by courtiers whose whole job is to keep him from thinking of himself. A century and a half later Schopenhauer arrives with his pendulum, life swinging between the pain of wanting and the boredom of having, and his darker conclusion that if mere existence were satisfying, boredom would not exist. Then the laboratory: in 2014, University of Virginia researchers asked people to sit alone with their thoughts for fifteen minutes, no phone, no book, nothing in the room but a device that delivered a real electric shock. Among participants who had earlier said they would pay money to avoid that shock, 67 percent of men and 25 percent of women pressed the button anyway, and one man pressed it 190 times. We would rather feel pain than feel nothing. And in another fragment Pascal goes further: diversion is the only thing that consoles us for our miseries, and yet it is the greatest of our miseries, because it keeps us from ever reflecting on ourselves and leads us imperceptibly to death, a whole life spent successfully avoiding the one meeting that mattered. Then the turn. Everything we flee when we flee the silence is standing guard in front of everything we actually want: self-knowledge, real thought, presence, peace. The room was never the problem. The running was. Put in your earbuds and find out what happens if you stay.

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