Happy Birthday Papi

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In honor of papi's 65th birthday, I decided to talk about our relationship and what that looked like for me. I cried a lot in this episode because it was me expressing my thoughts and feelings about our father-daughter relationship. I talk about the absent parent, questioning how can I miss someone who was not even present. It is hard. This was hard. But it was important for me to talk about something that shapes a huge part of who I am and who I am working towards becoming, but also the trauma and heavy stuff that comes with working towards that and growing up. My relationship with my father was nothing that I wanted it to be, but I tried. I forgot to mention that I was always told to look for my father even when I felt as a child that was not my responsibility. Talking about our relationship can sometimes be really hard for me  ...