So, I finally did it. I pressed live on TikTok — candles lit, cards shuffled, settings researched to within an inch of their life. And then... I completely fell apart.

This episode is me being honest about what happened when I tried to step into a version of mediumship that isn't really mine. The 48-hour spiral that followed taught me more about my own practice — and my own self-doubt — than almost anything else has. It turns out the scaffolding was all in place. The house, though? Empty.

I also come clean about the daily meditation routine I promised you on the beach episode. Spoiler: it lasted one day.

If you've ever tried something, crashed, and had to sit with that cringe for a while — this one's for you. 🌧️✨

Matt x

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