We’re often told that when something painful happens, we must immediately find meaning. To stay positive. To believe everything happens for a reason. But what if asking “why me?” isn’t a lack of faith...what if it’s honesty?

In this episode, I open up about my recent painful health journey and the emotional toll of uncertainty. I talk about illness, unanswered questions, and the quiet pressure to be strong, grateful, and hopeful when your body and mind are overwhelmed.

I explore how toxic positivity can make pain heavier, why constantly searching for meaning can feel invalidating, and how acceptance is not the same as giving up. This conversation isn’t about turning suffering into a lesson; it’s about allowing yourself to be human.

If you’ve ever felt guilty for struggling, tired of being told to “just stay positive,” or stuck i ...