Wild Thing
Stagione 1
di Marcelle J
A mini-update on the state of affairs within my mind and emotions while in Arizona. In essence, I am experiencing an emotional hangover after having sent Tanner on his way back home without me.
In this episode I peel back the layers of progress towards the healing of my burn out. I look back on if and how my strategies to manage it have been effective since quitting my job, travelling down south and since the release of the first episode titled “The Burn Out Special”. I openly discussed the realizations I’ve had and what it might mean in looking forward towards the future. Hint: There’s still a lot of work to be done.
In this Update episode, I explore where I’m at, how I’m feeling in the current day with my journey and reflections. Noting how I am more comfortable within myself, feeling more settled and excitedly awaiting a visit from my boyfriend in the upcoming days.
I provide another update while I’m on the road. I bring up my currently status with my mental health, my physical health and some of the thoughts and feelings that are floating around in my head. In short, I miss my boyfriend.
A very vulnerable episode. These are genuine thoughts and feelings I had in a moment where I felt small, scared and vulnerable. Where I feel I had lost my footing. It occurred before a really perspective changing therapy session the following day. These are thoughts and feelings that I have that cause me shame to admit, and are very difficult to open up about. This means, it’s extremely important that I share this openly. In case you also struggle the same on some days.
I share some of the tips and tricks that I use when I find myself dysregulated, threatening to head down spiral lane. It can be tough and takes time to establish a good routine and I still find myself needing to remind myself of what’s right in front of me. I try not to beat myself up, and these are some of the ways I gently remind myself to care for myself in my times of need.
I decide to explore objectively my feelings and behaviours when it comes to how I respond in the world regarding my situation. Simply recognizing that I am not treating myself in a way that is consistent with how I treat my loved ones, I learn this needs to change to hopefully allow myself to work towards self compassion, self love and breaking patterns.
I dive into a discussion about how I feel when I get overwhelmed with the expectations of socializing in the world in which we live today. I also explore how I feel conflicted in what the expectation is for those in the world, in the public when it comes to generalized socializations and my perceptions of it all. .:The first few seconds has terrible audio- I"m sorry about that. I wanted to re-record but then came down with a cold. This will have to do. It quickly resumes with the previous audio quality you've come to expect from this pod!
In this episode I provide an update with how I’m feeling currently, touching a bit on what I’ve been up to. I admit something that I realize about myself within this context, the travel. I also begin exploring the feelings that are cropping up as I start to dive into the depts of writing my first novel- my memoir.
This episode explores my experience with some comments I’ve received that I’ve perceived as conflicting, and explore how I’ve been impacted. I also touch upon what comes up with being triggered by them. I am honest with what my thoughts and feelings are around this currently sensitive topic. The internal dialogue is left unfiltered, unedited.