In this episode Pastor John and I talk about a lifelong struggle of guilt, shame, fear, loneliness and rejection that was the result of being introduced to pornography and addiction at a very young age. He shares how he carried this weight alone while growing up as a pastor's kid, through bible college, having false authenticity that prevented deep meaningful intimacy with his wife and even into his time as a pastor.

“My Struggle with sin means I’m not acceptable.”

The constant fear of being found out and the rejection that surely would follow drove a desire to perform for God and those around him. John would teach others about God's love for them while never feeling it for himself.

“I didn’t know that freedom from Sin, Guilt, Shame, was even possible.”

John shares the struggle and fear of being completely honest with hi ...