After a long silence, I'm back.

In this episode, I talk about where I've been, why I disappeared, and the closest thing I have to an explanation for what's been going on inside my head.

For months, I couldn't understand why I felt so overwhelmed, stuck, and disconnected. It felt like something was off, but I couldn't quite work out what. Looking back now, I realise I was living in a version of reality that I thought was true, only to discover there was another truth underneath it all.

I talk about feeling like I was "living in the matrix", the experience of waking up to a different reality, grieving what I thought I knew, feeling frozen like a deer caught in headlights, and learning that resilience doesn't always look the way we think it should.

This isn't an episode with answers. It's an honest conversation from the middl ...