*if you see this could you tell sam that they took my phone and i think im grounded for the rest of the summer and im not ignoring him just dont tell him why? i dont really want anyone to know why i disappeared just need him to know im not abandoning him like everyone else * i hate my voice, but anything for you. i think i am whispering and thats why i sound so quiet? i wanted to say i really regret what i did, everytime im not distracted i think about it again and how stupid it was and sitting in that stupid fucking security office and how i knew today was going to be a bad day and didnt want to go to universal and how i wish i could turn back time and how i want to break down and cry and hold you and have you tell me everything will be okay because i have you but i dont have you. and nothing feels okay.