After separating from my husband, I went back.

Not because everything was suddenly better, but because I felt like I owed it to my marriage to give it one more real chance.

There were promises of counseling and hope that things could change. Then COVID happened, counseling never happened, and eventually we fell back into the same patterns.

But this episode isn’t only about what went wrong in my marriage. It’s also about something I did wrong.

One night, I drank too much, blacked out, became physically violent toward my husband, said things I couldn’t remember, and revealed the affair.

There are parts of our stories where we were hurt and there are parts where we caused hurt. Healing requires being willing to tell both.

In this episode, I talk about second chances, accountability, changing my relationship with a ...