306 - the number that changed my life

That's the number I saw when I finally stepped on a scale after years of refusing to look. Three hundred and six pounds. I was building Clockwork, closing deals, showing up for everyone except myself — and I didn't even realize how far gone I was. I bought bigger clothes instead of asking harder questions. I skipped meals or ate whatever was fastest. I told myself health could wait until after the next fundraise, the next launch, the next quarter. There was always a next thing. This episode is the story I've never told in full — how I got to 306 without noticing, the moment that number broke something open in me, and the nearly 100-pound journey that came after. It wasn't a montage. It was the hardest thing I've ever done. And the hardest part wasn't the gym or the food — it was giving myself permission to matter as much as my company. If you're a founder running on caffeine and cortisol telling yourself you'll deal with it later, this one's for you. There is no later.