RIPPLES IN THE MATRIX®: The Podcast

RIPPLES IN THE MATRIX®: The Podcast

por SIMONE MARIE-ELISE

Superación personal Espiritualidad

Alive & Alone

On my 40th birthday, I jumped out of a plane 13,000 feet above the Pacific Ocean, alone. But the story doesn't start at the jump. It starts a week earlier, having a total breakdown at home because I felt forgotten, unchosen and lonely. On Friday, September 25th, 2026, I turned 40 and went skydiving for the very first time in Oceanside, California. Solo. And the strangest part? I wasn't scared. In this first episode of Ripples in the Matrix, I take you from the airplane door to the free fall, the moment I finally let go of the harness and opened my arms, and the words that kept pouring out of me: I am so alive. Then we go back to where this story really begins: the week before my birthday, when I felt alone, discarded and not chosen. I share the emotional purge I'd been resisting for months, the friend who held space for me, the unexpected invitation that showed up in the middle of it, and the moment I realized no one was coming to create my birthday for me. I had to choose myself. We also get into: Why I wasn't craving adrenaline. I was craving feeling alive. How life turns into a to-do list instead of a to-feel list when we disconnect from our practices Living as God in body, and what Kobe Bryant and Kanye West taught me about delusional self-belief The limits I'd been treating as facts, and which ones are actually mine Fear vs. faith, and why I'm more afraid of not fully living than of dying Why integration matters as much as the experience itself Why this podcast exists This isn't an invitation to jump out of a plane (unless you've been feeling that nudge, then go!). It's an invitation to ask: Where have you stopped feeling fully alive? Where are you waiting to be chosen? And what limit have you agreed to that was never yours? See THE JUMP video here Chapters 00:00 – Turning 40 and my first skydive 00:56 – Waiting for the fear that never came 03:01 – An unexpected connection: skydiving over the pyramids 03:58 – The door opens 06:04 – The jump and the free fall 09:44 – "I am so alive" 10:48 – Where this story really starts 13:42 – Feeling unseen, unchosen and lonely 15:04 – The emotional purge I'd been resisting 18:17 – An invitation in the middle of it all 21:06 – Finding evidence of support 22:03 – Choosing myself 23:35 – Craving aliveness, not adrenaline 24:24 – A to-do list instead of a to-feel list 25:19 – God in body: Kobe, Kanye and delusional self-belief 29:00 – The limits I'd been treating as facts 30:47 – Let go and let God: what if you fly? 31:54 – Life is a game, and I'm not afraid of dying 34:51 – The beach: why integration matters 37:23 – The old Simone and year 40 39:03 – Why this podcast exists 41:07 – Your invitation