I Still Believe in Allah. I Just Can't Practice Right Now.

This episode is for the Muslim who still believes — but cannot show up for the practice right now. Not because the faith is gone. Not because they stopped caring. But because something happened. And somewhere along the way, the practice got tangled up in the pain. And untangling them has been harder than anyone told them it would be.

Maybe religion was used against you. Maybe it was delivered through someone who hurt you — someone whose voice you still hear when you try to pray. Maybe the Quran was quoted to justify something that was done to you. Maybe the masjid, or the prayer mat, or the adhan carries a memory that you are not ready to sit with yet. Maybe you grew up in a religious environment that left you more wounded than whole. And now every time you try to get near the ...