Nervewing may be the closest thing the field of psychonautics has seen to a Shulgin of dissociatives. Having cataloged an extensive repertoire of 253 unique substances ingested in their lifetime, including many substances that they were the first to synthesize and experience. Nervewing also has the honor of being the person with the most Erowid reports submitted.

But unlike Shulgin, there was a darkness that crept in. Nervewing describes what it’s like to be so in the grips of dissociative addiction that doing PCP to clean the dishes was an ordinary part of their daily life.

The circumstances of this story are singular. How many people synthesize novel dissociatives and get a chance to test their creations? Few people have a drive to catalog so innate to their psychological makeup that they have the drive to explore even the most unpl ...