Looking back, I think it’s kind of fate that the first week I entered into the biggest media group in my city, I read Carrie Gracie’s report on Xi’s power grabbing game with Bo Xilai in 2017. It’s a really long article, called « The murder in the Lucky Holiday Hotel ». It was quite fascinating while I was reading, as a post graduate student majored in English Literature who entered her journalist dream as an intern working for an bilingual magazine. I just earned what I wanted. But that afternoon, when I finished reading that report, my dream as journalist collapsed. I don’t blame it because later that week when I attended a meeting in replace of my editor in chief who was up for other work, my dream was totally erased as I was seeing, listening, and taking notes sitting beside the Chief of the News Agency of the whole media group. The scene was  ...