In Episode 42 of After The Quiet, I share how a New Year’s gym routine quickly turned into a dangerous obsession. As steroid use, long nightly gym sessions, and anger entered our home, I was left managing work, three children, and every bedtime alone—while surviving on almost no sleep. This episode explores how control can appear in unexpected ways, the toll exhaustion takes on a parent, and what life looked like behind closed doors during one of the hardest years of my life.