#68 You Did Not Gain Speed — You Lost the Capacity for Depth

You call yourself decisive. But watch what you actually do: you cannot sit with a question that has no answer yet. You cannot hold something unresolved in your hands without immediately crushing it into a conclusion. That is not decisiveness. That is flinching — dressed up, rebranded, awarded a personality trait.

The people who built cathedrals never saw them finished. They laid a stone anyway. Not because they were patient by temperament — because they understood that some things only exist inside the long wait, and cannot be forced into the present without being destroyed in the crossing.

You have been mistaking your intolerance for a virtue. The costume is convincing. The weakness underneath it is not.