This is one of the rawest episodes I’ve ever recorded to date. Even harder than my story because to be honest I have been avoiding a BIG part of my healing.

I have realized, after an extremely difficult night, that I haven't made peace with some trauma I experienced in my adolescence and adulthood. My biggest challenge from this realization is because I was older and not a child when it happened that I "should have known better" than to put myself in situations like that.

In this episode, I go in blindly. No notes. No script. Just me, showing up right after an extremely tough night — experiencing a panic attack so intense it landed me in the hospital.

I’m walking you through exactly what led to that moment, what it taught me, and why I’m finally giving love to the parts of myself I’ve been avoiding.

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