Robert Kurvitz failed as a musician, published a novel that sold around a thousand copies, and spent three years in alcoholism and depression. Then he turned that experience into Disco Elysium, a 2019 role-playing game that has sold over five million copies. This episode traces the Estonian creator's path from a rock band and a world-building idea sparked while listening to trance music, through years of tabletop sessions with friends including painter Alexander Rostov, to the 2013 novel Sacred and Terrible Air and the collapse that followed.

It then covers how Kaur Kender pushed him toward video games, the founding of ZA/UM in a squatted Tallinn art gallery, and how personal trauma became mechanics: 24 internal skills that argue with the player, the thought cabinet, and failure as a narrative feature. The episode looks at the game's litera ...